As it is now 2 pm, On 31st January , I think it is safe to say that not only have I achieved 30 days of sobriety, but I have also completed a full calendar month without taking a drink, and every day it seems to get easier and easier.
I know that I must not let my guard down and even though I have had no recent urges to take a drink, I do occasionally imagine being in situations when it would be more fun if I was drinking than staying sober. An example of this would be my daughter’s wedding I am going to this summer. That is going to be one unholy test of my resolve. As long as I am in Thailand, I can more or less avoid ‘situations’ that might tempt me to have a drink, such as parties etc. I have already turned down a number of these and will continue to do so until I am quite sure that I will be OK.
All my previous attempts to stop drinking have failed because in the end I allowed my guard to drop and I was over-confident that I could handle difficult ‘situations’. This time around I will be much more careful and will take no chances. There is no booze at home, I rarely go to bars and I avoid most ‘situations’ where people will be drinking and/or getting pissed.
I am still battling with my sleepiness and lethargy. Some days I feel more energetic than others, it seem to be unpredictable. I think I will start cutting back on my medication very soon and see if it has any effect.
Today I arose early (7.30 a.m.) and drove to the BMW dealer and have been sitting here ever since. The car computer has been playing games for over a month and finally reached the point where I was forced to bring it in.
Up to yesterday, it was just the computer screen that kept going blank, shutting the car stereo off and was sometimes accompanied by a loud knocking noise in the roof. Then, after a while it would come back on again and all was fine until the next time it had a ‘fit’. But yesterday the car door locking system went crazy and now the only door that I can open is the driver’s door, using a special emergency key. I can’t even open the fuel flap to refuel and only had just enough in the tank to get me to the dealer!
So we’ve been sitting here ever since and I have a sneaking suspicion that I am not going to get my car back today which will mean us having to find our own way home.
I have made a start on the next chapter of my novel but haven’t progressed very far. I have been slightly preoccupied recently, what my little adventure to Chonburi today and also with my recent decision to buy a new camera to replace the one that was stolen last year; so I’ll probably get back into writing later in the week. Hopefully, I’ll publish something by the weekend or early next week at the latest.
In the meantime, I am hoping that I won’t have’ to take a long walk back to Pattaya tonight…….