This is only my 4th Posting of December and is likely to be the last one, as on Wednesday, 29th I will spend the day in Bangkok and tomorrow, at long last, I plan to make a long delayed start on my novel. All being well, I will continue my novel writing on 30th and 31st, and maybe get back to my blog on 1st January.
I have been sorting out my ‘bog archive’ for 2010 (in case my web sites crashes and never reappears) and I find that in spite of all the ups and downs, trial and tribulations of 2010, I actually managed to put 190,000 words onto ‘virtual’ paper this year and that EXCLUDES my creative writing in ‘Mobi’s Story’ and associated ‘Mobi Vignettes’. The average novel is less than this number of words so all in all, not a bad effort for an old, ‘common to garden drunk’, as the dear, late and lamented Hank used to say.
I do realise that ‘continuation in service’, for what purports to be a daily blog, is critical in holding and building a readership base and there is no doubt that my long breaks in service have not helped my cause. All I can say is that I will try to better in 2011 as I lowly rebuild my life and start writing my novel , both of which must unfortunately take priority over daily blogging.
Things in my life are slowly starting to get themselves into a proper order and although it sometimes seems that I take one steps forward and two steps back, I actually think it is the other way round – two steps forward and one step back.
Noo is still with me and I am starting to appreciate just how nice a person she is. She literally tends to my every need and seems to be very happy to do so. Everything is good with her, including some of the best sex I have ever had in my life. She washes all my clothes by hand, is a pretty fair cook and has learned how to cook farang food which I occasionally feel like eating for a change.
When my friend Bob departed I somehow fell into the habit of having a few glasses of red wine during the evening whilst watching TV. I confess this wasn’t one of the smartest things for me to do and as ever, it finally got a bit out of control. Christmas Eve afternoon saw me in one of the Lakeside bars with a couple of my old drinking buddies, and after a couple of coffees I got stuck into the red wine. Late afternoon turned into evening and evening into the wee hours. I eventually crawled home at around 2 a.m. where I found Noo, still waiting patiently for me.
I didn’t wake up until Christmas afternoon and was not feeling great. Christmas meant nothing to Noo and my repast consisted of some heated up Thai vegetables with pork and a couple of cheese sandwiches. I seem to be making a habit of eating cheese at Christmas as I recall having a similar repast last year. But the big difference is that last year I was all alone and this year I had the delectable Noo for company.
I continued my habit of drinking a few glasses of red on Christmas evening, but after watching the excellent ‘Leaving Las Vegas’ on Christmas evening, I think I might have finally forsaken booze forever. (Where have we heard that before???).
‘Leaving Las Vegas’ is based on an autobiographical novel by a guy who was an alcoholic and drunk himself to death. (Sound familiar??). Nicolas Cage, in the lead role, for which he won best acting Oscar, goes to Las Vegas to drink himself to death, after being dumped by his wife due to his excessive drinking. (Sound familiar???) He meets a whore who he strikes up a relationship with and they move in together. (sound familiar??). He doesn’t stop drinking, his behaviour gets wilder and wilder and one day his whore girlfriend comes home to find him screwing another whore. (Sound familiar??). She throws him out and by the time she finally catches up with him again, he is on his deathbed. Her final act is to screw him as he lies dying.
I was tremendously moved by this movie. I have no desire to be the drunk who ‘leaves Pattaya’ in such a fashion.
I may have a couple of glasses of red on New Year’s Eve, but that will be that. New’s Year’s Day is a great day to stop drinking and a great day to try to turn my life around and I that is what I plan to do. My drinking, apart from a couple of notable lapses has been much more moderate in recent months and I feel I am now ready to take that final step.
Noo is a lovely lady, in every sense of the word, and she has begged me to never go out ‘on the town’ without her. I have promised her on this and I think it will be as good a way as any way for me to stick to the ‘straight and narrow’ and hopefully to ‘deliver me from temptation’. I seriously doubt if I will ever find a better lady than Noo. There are very few around with her looks, intelligence and easy temperament who would be prepared to put up with a grumpy, lazy, pot-bellied old drunk like Mobi.
All that it remains for me to do is to wish all my readers, including those, (like snot ass et al), who have not exactly encouraged me to change my evil ways, a very happy and prosperous New Year.
Although it might not always seem so, I do appreciate all your comments, both encouraging and critical and I value much of the advice you have imparted over the past year, some of which I hope I have had the humility to take on board.
It’s a funny old world out there – so many disasters, tragedies, death, destruction and suffering – wherever you choose to look. It is not easy to stay cheerful and optimistic for the future of our species and in many ways I am grateful that I am in the twilight of my life. I may not believe in a God in the generally accepted meaning of the word, but I do believe that there is some kind of ‘super entity’ out there somewhere in this universe. I do not believe for one moment that this ‘entity’ gives a fig about me or any individual on this planet, but I do believe in the sheer indomitability of the human spirit. I do believe that ultimately a shining spirit of love, hope and joy for life will shine through in this dark and troublesome world and that good will eventually triumph over evil.
Happy New Year folks…….