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I’m still sober and now well into my third day of sobriety.
I haven’t been feeling that great, nor that bad – just rather ‘down-ish’ in my general mood and very lethargic. I spend most of my time in my room, either on my lap top or watching TV.
To give you an example of how a typical alcoholic will sort of ‘sleep-walk’ through life, just doing barely enough to get by – today I decided to check my blood sugars for the first time in weeks.
For the past few months, the only time I would check them was when I was having a ‘hypo’, (when the blood sugars get dangerously low and can cause coma and even death), as fortunately I still get recognisable symptoms when this occurs. Apart from that, I have just taken insulin when I remembered and hoped for the best, knowing full well that beer would only elevate my blood sugars to unacceptable levels.
I had a large, late breakfast and took my usual does of insulin. Two hours later I checked my blood and to my horror discovered that despite the insulin shot, my BS was 198 – extremely high. High blood sugars would partly account for my constant sleepiness – in fact I dozed off after breakfast for about an hour, despite the fact I had had a good night’s sleep. So my blood is obviously in a bad way – no doubt due to my drinking, bad diet and being about 10 kilos overweight.
I gave myself another shot there and then, and even an hour later, despite the double dose, my BS was down a little but still very high.
I took a third shot and went for a walk along the beach – all in all about 40 minutes, and arrived back at my room sodden with sweat and exhausted. I am in very bad shape. This time my meter reading finally showed an acceptable level of blood sugars. This will be something I have to work on.
I checked my blood pressure – a little high but not overly so – mainly thanks to the mountain of blood pressure pills that I take to control it.
High blood sugars have undoubtedly contributed to my lethargy and depression. Before it’s too late I must take this in hand. I don’t want to end up losing extremities or having permanent organ damage.
All in all, it really is time for a major change in the life for this: ‘much wedded, Pattaya based, carousing alcoholic!’
I did some work today on tidying up the first 5 parts of my Vignette about Nid, my third wife and I have now published them on my blog in chronological order under the ‘Nid’ tab. I have done this so that it will make life easier for my readers when I resume the story of Nid, with part 6 in the next day or so. It has been quite a while since I wrote part 5.
I am going out shortly for a meal and may blog again later when I return. In the meantime I will publish what I have written so far – just so that you don’t think I have relapsed…..