I managed to resist temptation and despite increasing depression, I stayed at home and continued to dry out.
At around 11 p.m., I took a Xanax tablet and must have fallen asleep by about 11.30.
I woke at 5.30 this morning, feeling very refreshed and my depression had lifted. I am unsure if this is due to the Xanax (which is an antidepressant/anti panic attack med) or because the alcohol had left my system, or a combination of both.
This is the second time that Xanax seems to have improved my mood, but it is worrying because I am aware it is very addictive. I always try to keep away from addictive drugs, as I have enough to cope with from my alcohol addiction.
Anyway, I arose with a new spirit of enthusiasm and tidied up the condo, washed up a whole mass of dishes and generally took care of tasks that had been neglected for days, if not weeks.
Unfortunately, although I feel pretty good, there is no sign of any improvement in my rashes or my bright red face.
So I went to see my doctor at the local clinic who has been pretty good in the past. This time I am not so sure he knew what he was talking about. I told him about my drinking binges but when I confirmed that I had no itching, he told me my condition had nothing to do with an excess of alcohol and was probably a virus. I really doubt he is correct, but as ever, he gave me some pills and we shall see.
Then I drove around and did a number of errands before coming back home.
I still feel pretty good, gulped down a sandwich and at this point in the day I have no desire or intention of taking a drink.
I’m sorry, I still can’t write too much. I am using my left hand and one finger on my right hand but after a few minutes I get a lot of pain and have to stop. If I use my left hand only, it takes forever to complete the text.
Hopefully I will be able write more as the broken bones start to heal.