Jomtien, 22nd June – Sober since Sunday afternoon

I managed to resist temptation and despite increasing depression, I stayed at home and continued to dry out.

At around 11 p.m., I took a Xanax tablet and must have fallen asleep by about 11.30.

I woke at 5.30 this morning, feeling very refreshed and my depression had lifted. I am unsure if this is due to the Xanax (which is an antidepressant/anti panic attack med) or because the alcohol had left my system, or a combination of both.

This is the second time that Xanax seems to have improved my mood, but it is worrying because I am aware it is very addictive. I always try to keep away from addictive drugs, as I have enough to cope with from my alcohol addiction.

Anyway, I arose with a new spirit of enthusiasm and tidied up the condo, washed up a whole mass of dishes and generally took care of tasks that had been neglected for days, if not weeks.

Unfortunately, although I feel pretty good, there is no sign of any improvement in my rashes or my bright red face.

So I went to see my doctor at the local clinic who has been pretty good in the past. This time I am not so sure he knew what he was talking about. I told him about my drinking binges but when I confirmed that I had no itching, he told me my condition had nothing to do with an excess of alcohol and was probably a virus. I really doubt he is correct, but as ever, he gave me some pills and we shall see.

Then I drove around and did a number of errands before coming back home.

I still feel pretty good, gulped down a sandwich and at this point in the day I have no desire or intention of taking a drink.

I’m sorry, I still can’t write too much. I am using my left hand and  one finger on my right hand but after a few minutes I get a lot of pain and have to stop. If I use my left hand only, it takes forever to complete the text.

Hopefully I will be able write more as the broken bones start to heal.

6 thoughts on “Jomtien, 22nd June – Sober since Sunday afternoon”

  1. Quit the booze and then start exercising. OK, yup, right …

    If it wasn’t so pathetic, your existence would read like a hilarious farce.

    “Pathetic” is the best word I can think of that describes you.


    1. Why don’t you read before you open your pathetic mouth?

      I was equally alcoholic in 2000 and probably even more unfit than I am now.

      Yet I did it then, so why not now?

      Thank you for your kind and well intentioned support and encouragement.

      Have a nice day.


  2. Mobi-

    It seems that people with addictive personalities have little hope of quitting without finding an new substitute addiction. My suggestion would be to find a new and healthy “addiction”. How about really working on getting into great shape. You could start by just power walking and work your way up to joining a gym and taking classes and lifting weights. If you can get into great shape and you start being really pleased with what you see in the mirror, the last thing you will want to do is poison your body with alcohol. I would guess that an added benefit to this would be making you completely exhausted at night so you have no problem sleeping. I’ve read about drug addicts who switched their addiction to ultra-marathons, so I think something along those lines could work for you as well, although perhaps you don’t have to go that far. But if you set a goal, like maybe running a half-marathon and dropping down to a certain weight, it would do wonders for your self-esteem and I would think it would limit your alcohol cravings. Good luck.


    1. When I took early retirement in 2000 I started doing power walking which ended up as a daily 30 minute jog. Before this, I hadn’t had any real exercise for over 40 years. I lost a lot of weight and became pretty fit. I kept this up until about three years ago and since then my weight has ballooned and I am now very unfit.

      Yes, you are correct in every respect. My plan is to stop the booze, then start exercise. The beach is minutes away and I can walk/jog every day. There is also a large, empty swimming pool. The timing is perfect as it has finally started to cool down and make the exercise bearable.

      Thanks for the advice.


  3. Never a scribe around when you need one!

    Yes, anti-depressants and alcohol are like oil and water, don’t mix to well.

    Good luck Mobi………….


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