My drinking is pretty much out of control and on Tuesday night Tan packed her bags and left me.
On Monday I was angry because she went out with her friends after school, never called me and turned her phone off.
I came home drunk quite late and I threw all her clothes on the floor when I found she still wasn’t home. Then I went out again and proceeded to get even drunker.
When I finally came home in the early hours, Tan was asleep on the sofa.
On Tuesday we went to eat at her ex employer’s bar/restaurant. I had been drinking all day and was pretty pissed. We still hadn’t really made up from Monday and Tan’s aunt (the bar owner) asked me what was wrong between us.
I said some bad things about Tan to her Aunt and all her friends at the bar. Basically I said she was lazy – which she is – and didn’t take care of me very well – which she doesn’t, but it really isn’t a big deal. I said it in a bad, drunken way in front of everyone, and of course she lost a lot of face.
She drove me home then packed her bags and left. I can’t blame her. I know it’s all my fault. Who wants to live with a drunken slob who insults you in public?
She may come back, but I doubt it. She is really angry and maybe it’s all for the best. She is a very sexy, lovely girl and all the men go crazy about her, so it shouldn’t be too hard for to find another sugar Daddy- someone who behaves a bit better than me.
So I have been drinking a lot, and am lurching from terrible hangovers to being pissed again.
I’m not sure where this will end. I’m getting into a vicious cycle where I have to drink to stop myself from feeling so bad.
I am speaking to Dave again. He is drinking, has admitted to me that he can never stop and accepts he will die soon.
A few days ago he fell down once again and smashed his head open yet again. He has to go to hospital every day to have it dressed.
What a fucking pair!