I would like to thank all those who have commented on my blog, including those who have supported me, and also to those who continue to find fault.
It has been a salutary experience and I feel bad about removing the comments from ‘Mick’, ‘Lloyd’ and ‘Someone’ from my blog.
I didn’t want to do it, but the comments were becoming extremely hostile and personal. Abusive language was starting to slip in so I’m afraid it was all getting too much.
May I respectively suggest that before anyone sits down and writes a critique of me, my behaviour or my actions, just ask yourself if you would be prepared to tell me to my face what you have written on paper. If the answer is honestly “yes”, then please go ahead, but I will not tolerate abusive language or gratuitous personal insults.
I seem to be moving ever closer to a critical “crossroads “ in my life and at this point I cannot predict the outcome.
Tonight I will be seeing Dang at my house and we will talk about things.
On Thursday I am scheduled to take Wan, Jasper and Sherry back to Roi Et where the plan is for me to stay until after Songkran, a period of at least two weeks.
I am still drinking, but never to excess, and I am also trying to decide whether to give sobriety another go, or just give up and see if I can drink in moderation.
And last but not least, I am considering whether to continue with this blog. Some of the comments have upset me more than they should have done, and I know this is all due to my unstable state of mind. In the past I would have relished the cut and thrust of ‘internet battle’, but these days it just seems to get to me.
Maybe it would be better to call it a day. Although there have been a few days when I attracted nearly a thousand views, for the most part I have averaged around two hundred hits a day.
Frankly, I am disappointed that during the past nine months I haven’t built up a greater readership. I know, it is all down to me, but there is no point devoting all this time and energy in writing a blog if so few people read it.
I like to consider myself an author, and every author needs someone to read what he writes. But two hundred odd readers is very little return for all the effort.
So I will continue to ponder this, along with the other issues that need to be decided in my life.