Today is the first day of my latest attempt at sobriety.
I remained sober on 5th, and also up to about 10 p.m. On 6th (yesterday)
Then I drove home, parked my car and walked to Jomtien and started drinking.
I ended up at at all night bar near the Hanuman Statue, where I met a nice , very gentle, very polite lady.
I bought her a few drinks and she told me she had just started her first day’s work at a bar, having travelled from her home that morning. She was 45 years old and I felt really sorry for her, having to turn to prostitution at her age to pay for her two sons’ schooling.
She was completely exhausted but had to stay there until 7.30 in the morning when her shift finished. So I paid her bar fine and told her to go home and get some sleep.
I finally staggered home at around 5 a.m. and slept until 11 a.m.
I have to get myself out of this vicious cycle of bars, women and booze. It is destroying me.
I attended meetings on 5th and 6th , but still started drinking.
I may go to Phnom Penh next week for a few days and spend a some time there with my friend who is scheduled to be passing through.
Maybe a change of scenery will be good for me.